i am truely having some issues. i have been either sick or having a root canal the last 2 months which to my doctors mean antibiotics and they have done something to me. What i mean by that is i don't have any feeling or want to do anything, it has messed with something inside of me to where i feel extremely depressed. i am unsure of what to do. so i am going to do some research because 1. i don't want to be on more meds (been there, done that) and 2. i should be happy right now. granted i have not lost any weight in the last month, mostly back to the gain and lose the same 5 lbs like i did during the holidays, but that is better than giving up all together and gaining 20 lbs back witch would be very easy but then i would be even more depressed.
Many friends have said i need to take a break from everything. i do not have the luxury to do that. i have a full time job, i have obligations that i would love to just up and step away from (and i have taken a break from a lot) but i am not a celebrity who can check themselves into a spa for a week and forget about everything and focus on themselves.
I have not gone out and danced in a long time and i was given the option to do drag this past week for a few very big events including one where 2 of RuPaul drag race contestant/winner were at and i turned it down.
i am doing what i can with what i have for now..... hoping to be myself sooner than later
Kelly
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