Day 302- Perception

When i look at myself i still see a chunky/chubby girl. granted, i know i am smaller but i still look at myself compared to others who are the same size and i see them as smaller and that i can't possibly wear the same size as them. it is a mind f**k! I dealt with this last time i lost a lot of weight 3 yrs ago and after i was done with "the plan" i gained back because i didn't believe it was me. what i saw in the mirror didn't look any different day to day when i was gaining the weight back. The only way i knew i was gaining was that my "smaller" clothes were getting tight.

I really don't have that worry this time in losing my weight. last time it was a race to the finish and then what? This time it is a- i am doing this for me to be healthy and i like what i am doing. sure there are cravings, temptations and days when i give in a lil. but those days are rare and i stay focused. so what if my weight has bounced in and out of the same 5 lbs for the last 3 months..... my inches are still coming down which means i am gaining more muscle..... and muscle weighs more than fat. i seriously have to tell myself that some days because "weight loss" can really mess with your mind. everyone is focused on the scale number. i am, to a degree, but at the beginning of the month when i get my weigh and measure i see the difference in the body fat % and inches lost.

Kelly