Day 72- Depression Sux!!!

I have been struggling with depression for years. My Father is Manic Depressive (bi-polar) and my mom is Clinical depressive. i dunno what i am, nor do i really wanna know, but what i do know is that i do get depressed. it especially happens after a big event that i have been looking forward to like the Hot Rod show and the Photo shoot. it is a let down.... nothing big to look forward to for a while. i do have several things coming up and things i need to do, but not for a couple months, so i am trying to build myself up for those.

about 10 years ago i was on a depression med called Paxil. after my divorce i decided i did not like how it made me feel numb, so i weened myself off of it and i felt good! a few months later my grandfather, who i loved very much, died at the age of 90. at the time i was working at a nutrition section in a local grocery store and knew that there was a way with vitamins. so i did a lil research and asked around and found the right combination..... and it worked!!

i have been needing to go back on the regimen for a while, and will after i get paid next. it made me feel better, more energized and not so tired and irritated all the time or crying at the drop of a hat.

i have been noticing the last couple days that i have been extra hungry, which is a symptom of my depression. even though i was eating good "clean" food, i was eating a lil more than i should. that was a major sign to me that this needs to be dealt with. so this morning i drank my Dfine (fruit punch flavor) and got my self ready for work and did not let things stress me out as much as it has. it is a good start.

Kelly